Confused...

its NOT what i can do...ITS what i want to do.....

but i always want to do something i don't know if i can do or not.....

CONFUSED !!!! thats what i am....

still searching for something....

Things i wanted to write about but never did....

Foreigner in my own country...... the language barrier i faced at banglore bus stop......
One glued page..... of my life book which no one knows about but me....
My super hero squad..... everyone around me have some kind of super power they don't even know about....

and lotsa other stuff....

maybe one day i will.....

Just thinking...

TV made a huge impact on kids....

ok nothing new about it..... but the point i wanna make here is the connection it makes....

in earlier days (the dd days) we have only one channel to watch...so everybody watches the same channel....EVERYBODY..... and while watching it you are sure that all your other friends are watching the exact same thing with their family members....so you can discuss next day about it with anybody.... now when there are million channels and million programs..... you are never sure if anyone else you know is watching the same thing....if they are its a MIRACLE.... which usually happened with me and one my pals when she was in india.... so now you feel a connection if you like the same shows.... so basically DD used to make that connection for entire india in 90s.....
getting my point....

so this post is for the one thing i will always miss in my life....
JUNGLE BOOK..... the final episode..... when whole india was watching it i had my play rehearsal... i never watched that episode..... but i lied about it next day that it was awesome so that i wont be an outcast... :-/
it was telecasted again after few days and i was home.... but i didn't watched it..... i dont know why.... but yeah there it is...i said it.... i haven't seen the jungle book final episode ever...

Another adventure....of different kind......

being from a village i know few things about how to buy a cow....
standard procedure:
ask for price
check the teeth for right age determination and diseases etc.
go at the time of twilight... to check the milk productivity.....
never show interest in the begining......and by the end show extremly interested...but don't finalize the deal...leave your number to the seller......that way you have a upper hand.

why am i telling this...... ok..... it all started on sunday 9th july morning....
10 am: i got a call that he want to meet me.... me drunk from last night party....didn't even know who he is.... he said he will reach noida by 4:00 pm....i said "ok....meet you at 4:00"
2:00 pm : i got up finally....saw all the calls.....no clue whom i talked to....
4:00 pm : somebody knocked on my door.....
it was an embarassing situation..... on the door was standing a gentleman and a lady.....they actually came to SEE me..... as a suitable guy for their daughter.... ME..... hah!!
so i was like a decent guy entertained them for next half an hour....
it was just the starting...the whole awkward environment......then the gentleman broke the silence with his standard set of questions.......
"so how much you earn??" ---- what??? no seriously.....WHAT??? you just came to my house three minutes ago......
"enough to live my life happily :)" --- now thats a witty one
"do you wear specs...there are dark circles under your eyes...." --- the door is that way mister......i am already embarrased by this whole situation.....
"he he he.....work pressure??? irregular eating habits...afterall i am a bachelor" ----- oh ya...did i mentioned beer!!
"after five years do you want to stay in india or abroad?" --- man you should be in the HR
"India.... fer sure!!" --- standard answer i learned from few interviews i gave in different companies
"how do you commute?" --- how the hell that matters?????
"oh i have a car" --- yeah mister I HAVE A CAR
"Have you seen our daughter?" --- oh please tell me she is a famous personality.....
"Not yet" ---- yeah yeah yeah...i know every gal in delhi...you must have thought i have seen your daughter....whats her number again.....
"Ok we will talk to your parents for the rest?" --- hellooooooo......what REST...there is NO REST......it ends here...now....tata...bye bye....
"ya please call them.....i ll also talk to them" --- and will ask on top of my voice.....what was all this DRAMA......
"this is our number......98********.....give us a call" --- oh yeah SURE!!!
"thanks" --- FINALLY

i think now you got the point.....

p.s. - if anybody need THE number.....he/she is welcome.....

Phoenix.......

hmmm...
to much to write and nothing i can think of right now.....

strange things i felt in last week....

- orkut is an addiction..... don't know how many times i visit my page in a day.... just to see if there is any message from her....keeps on refreshing..... i hate to see the same number of scraps... and i feel strange kind of joy when i see an extra scrap.... and it usually turn into more sadness when i see its from someone else.....

- how can someone shows a pic of a girl and ask, "So what do you think?"...i mean what can i think.... its not a shop where you see something you like and you buy it.... i m wondering how many times my pic being discarded by the gals... :( :)

- it takes a small comment to turn my mood from supreme ecstasy to supreme .... i m still searching the right word for deep saddning feeling with lots of frustration.......

- i feel jealous..... lot of times.....

- classical singing is soul soothing.....


currently worshiping : kristina kreuk
currently listening : aahista......aahista......
current state of mind : calm

Saints have the past...Sinners have the future

we won the cricket final(its one of the most exciting game i ever played) !!!!

so celebrating it in the pub with couple of beers and there is this gal who is sitting along with her friends.....

Me :Wow!! she is gorgeous....isn't she ??
Me :WHAT!!.....ofcourse she IS !!!

Me: What do you think,is she alone ??
Me: Comeon idiot! she is with those GALS!!

Me: Hmmm....what do you think should I proceed ??
Me: Wait for a second and just check what actually she likes...you dont wanna open your mouth with some wise ass comment of your when she is an intellect type...or just NOT YOUR TYPE(which means you are not her type)

Me: Did you see she was giglling on that comment of mine ?
Me: Dumbo!! She was choking on that big sip of the drink she had.

Me: Comeon yaar!! let me just wave and say hello....that won't be stupid...or would it be ?
Me: YA do that...... and do tell me if she asked for more drinks or the bill.

Me: You know what.....you are just waisting my time....with all of your bullshit i am just sitting here ogling over her.....when i can just go to her and say hello....i mean whats the harm in it...i mean we men are always out of ideas....if we should be funny....or intellect or sportsman or RICH to woo a gal..... i mean we should not waste our time in all that and just go ahead with the first thing in the mind....and you just see....what i am going to do now( with the biggest grin on my face)!!
Me: He he he...too late my friend she already left!!

Sure!!!

Five things i liked about GOA ( not in any order)
1. Walking on the beach in the night
2. Singing with the sound of waves
3. Vintage Churches
4. Sunset on the beach
5. Driving on the roads in night

Present state of mind : calm

Song of the week : cannonball

New year resolution : none


want to write so much about so many things but....

p.s. - the title has no relation with the post ( if you noticed the title)