back to the square one...

it feels good when someone younger to you introduces you to some of his friends as his younger brother....really good.....time to meet old friends....it was nice feeling...chatting about good old days and who is where and what are they doing over a cup of coffee.....some people do change and some never.....but i love them....now i am feeling home...after staying out from my real home for now more then 6 years, my home is where my friends are...and i left my home just two weeks back...now i am making a new one....

What if...

ever wondered when you see a stranger on the other side of the road... and your eyes met....and both of you recognise something similar....and you leave that person as it is on the other side of the road....and those few moments...u never know how many times you gonna re-live those moments in your dreams....and think....WHAT IF......what if i ve waved my hand to her.....what if i have said a hello with a smile.....what if she was also interested.....what if....thats the question...things would have been different if you have shown some signs of courage at that particular moment and you gonna repent it untill you encounter a similar situation again :)

I am your worst nightmare....

Ok..i am 23...and i am single....no no no its not a matrimonial ad...but does this mean i am ready for a marriage....GOD...please try to explain this to my parents.....sometimes they can really annoy you with a non-understanding mode....but deep down in your heart you know all they want is your happiness...but from now on my home trip means lots of strange people in the house whom my parents will introduce me as some distant relatives...and they gonna ask me everything from my sleeping habits to my views on politics which they already know from my parents.....and BAM!! there you go.....one week later a gal will appear from nowhere telling me about her academic records from school to some extra courses she had done in her last summer holidays(as if she is applying for a job....:) in a way she is .....)....
and then my parents will gonna ask me the golden question "How is she?"...and i am sitting totally stunned from all this like a six year old in a porn movie theater ....not able to relate anything....."WHAT do you mean how is she.....for god sake i am not gonna marry her...i dont even know her"....and all they say with their sheepish smile is...."YOU will....you will"....
GOD...its like a neverending nightmare....please anybody who went through this phase of life....please give me some tips to avoid this situation....

I am a bachelor....

Memories...sweet old memories.....just got a mail from old friend on our group and it refreshed all of my good-sour-bitter memories....especially when he mailed about our college days and after five minutes he sent a continuation mail refering my name and a whole lot of swearing :)
He was upset i never told him about my new job and location change....
Indeed those were the best days of my life.....
You know you always crib about your present situation that how bad it is and how good you were...but the fact is you always move ahead...there is no other option either
So, right now i am doing the house-hunt.....and i am tired of telling the land-lords that i dont drink,i dont smoke, i am a pure vegeterian and my wife and kids will soon join me(in about ten years)...
Ya...dont know why people are afraid of bachelors,cause we are free spirits,having a don't care attitude,enjoying the every single moment of life......i think they are JEALOUS. Hmmmm....ya thats rite....they are jealous of us.....they don't want to see us enjoying our life every single day while they are stuck with their daily household chores.....
Hope the hunt will end soon.

Song of the day - ThankYou "Dido"

New chapter...

Sometimes i wonder how you risk every damn thing in your life for a dream that no one else can see but you.....
Its a starting of a brand new day.....so i am here in my new work place....
Looks great...my team size is three including me.... people seems to be friendly...dont know how they 'll react professionally..
While coming back from south to north i was very sure that i ll enjoy my stay here....but now all seems to be dull....maybe its just the starting phase.....right now i m enjoying the difference of thinking level of people here and there.....
i met few of my old friends and they are the same as i left them....same set of problems and same priorities.....i was totally lost....then i realise - "hey..this is u one year back"...maybe i ll take some time again to mix here.....but one thing i enjoyed the most....the local bus travel.....i love it....people fighting over one rupee really tells you how much value worth is a one rupee coin...how hard some people have to work to earn one rupee.....

Song of the day - Ironic "Alanis Morissette"

Scribbling on the end leaf...

Today is my last day in my company.
I cann't express how weird it is to deal with all this good-byes. I mean these are my friends with whom i've lived, breathed, laughed and cried with for the last year,and it is hard as hell not to show my sorrow as i left them for maybe for the final time today.
People say your whole life flashes in front of your eyes just before you die....they are wrong....cause right now when i am writing this blog....all the sweet-sour-bitter memories of past one year falshed like its happening just now.
Till yesterday i thought i like change...but i guess i am wrong....i dont like change...i am accustomed to be with my friends and now i am moving to a new city,leaving all my close friends behind...
I don't know what kind of people i am gonna meet there but no-one will be like this bunch.God i am gonna miss all you guys a lot.
Dont know if anybody gonna read this but thank you all for making my life a joyfull journey.I am a better human being for having known you as friends.
Gud-luck!!

Inspirations...

Well lot of things inspire a person to do something....something different...either the new novel that you are reading or the movie you just saw or it could be the informal chat with your friend in the night about their plans for the future while sipping a hot cup of coffee....but thats just for the night...next day morning you just forget the whole thing like a dream...
well i am writing this so that i don't forget what i thought for a second last night....
I was reading "alchemist" and gosh it really inspire you to follow your dreams, to do something which you believe in....everything else is just a shear compromise....
Its a story about a shepherd's quest to find his destined "treasure".It tells you how easy for people to give up their dream because of the hardships they think they might face. But this book gave you the hope to follow your dreams - "When a person really desires something,the whole universe conspires to help the person realize his dreams"...
But for a confused person like me..the ultimate question is what is my dream to be....i have no idea right now....still stuggling to dream something...something big...something different...but what is that "something"....that i dont really know.....
So i am like a mountain river flowing freely with no idea where i ll reach in the end.....but that will be sea for sure.....i guess :)